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May. 27th, 2011 | 10:33 am
location: detecting...
mood: apatheticapathetic

Its been what? a year since I last posted on here? I forget the original reason why I created this thing in the first place. Maybe I wanted to post shitty art. But I hardly ever draw so that can't be it. Maybe it was to talk about events but I don't know how to put thoughts into coherent sentences. And I have no amazing opinions.

Nowadays I deal with shenanigans (this is my favourite word I swear) on Tumblr. People on their actually RP as TF characters with their own accounts. Megatron actually went out of his way to make an account on a human website to insult others and make sure his own moronic troops don't fuck anything up. The Decepticons on their are way way more active then the Autobots, which is a shame since some of them are pretty decent I think.

The TFA Sentinel Prime was divine. DIVINE and I loved him to death, but the RPer went on hiatus because they said it stopped being fun for them or something (I forget it hurts too much SOB). Everyone was surprised and sadden by the announcement and we hope that the RPer will return because they were PERFECT.

The TFA Optimus is also fantastic. They are the same Optimus on Formspring and a great person. They just don't seem to log on a whole lot which is a shame, but ya know LIFE, its likes to get in the way of retarded roleplaying fun.

There is a TFA Bumblebee which I like, but he seems to have disappeared along with his BFF Bulkhead. I think that they are both pretty decent at the characters, but maybe my standards are low? I dunno. I like what I like I guess.

And I think I do pretty well at the characters I play. The TFA Megs likes my TFA Skywarp, so I continue with what I am doing with that. I try my best with Hound but I mostly took him up because Mirage and Sentinel was just too crazy even for me so I had to put a stop to that. And I like the Hound/Mirage pairing but I have never played Hound before at ANYTHING. I've never even done romance much so I'm still getting the hang of that. I don't play Armada Thrust or Rattrap very much since there isn't a lot of their own kind to play off of. Don't know where they went. Newest character I took up it G1 Bumblebee, who I do play kinda childish, but no one seems to hate it, I hope.

What is SG Ricochet's deal? He really wants to rape Bee. It makes me laugh though because I never really expected that to happen when I made the account. I don't know much about Shattered Glass though so maybe he's suppose to like little yellow bots?

One thing that kinda irks me, not very much mind you but some times it makes me sigh, is that a lot of jokes seem to have to have a sexually tone to them. Who is doing who, rape rape rape (if you're Lockdown), and bad flirting. I know some folks try to start decent little adventures but it is kinda hard to do it via Tumblr, but we don't want to contain it to just IMs since then other folks wouldn't be involved.

I really shouldn't complain since I don't contribute at all/very very little.

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for fucks sake

Jun. 27th, 2010 | 09:26 pm

as any watchers have noticed, I don't use this too often. Not because I don't want to , but because I'm not much of a writer and I forget that I have this account. yes that is my bad, but its not like I bring you people anything so nothing of value was lost.

I still work at a nursing home as a housekeeper\

I failed university and have to wait a year before I can go back. Parents want me to go to community college, which I don't mind, but I don't know what I want to do. Dad is getting on my case about everything. I just don't feel really motivated about anything. I wasn't motivated during university which is probably why I didn't do so well. I just hated it.

I'm 20 by the way. I know everything about my life seems pretty lame right now since I'm 20 and complaining about shit like this. doesn't seem like I'm acting my age.

I rather just play Mass Effect forever. at least I can do what I want there.

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I got Bored

Mar. 28th, 2010 | 12:47 am

I Am A: True Neutral Human Bard (2nd Level)

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True Neutral A true neutral character does what seems to be a good idea. He doesn't feel strongly one way or the other when it comes to good vs. evil or law vs. chaos. Most true neutral characters exhibit a lack of conviction or bias rather than a commitment to neutrality. Such a character thinks of good as better than evil after all, he would rather have good neighbors and rulers than evil ones. Still, he's not personally committed to upholding good in any abstract or universal way. Some true neutral characters, on the other hand, commit themselves philosophically to neutrality. They see good, evil, law, and chaos as prejudices and dangerous extremes. They advocate the middle way of neutrality as the best, most balanced road in the long run. True neutral is the best alignment you can be because it means you act naturally, without prejudice or compulsion. However, true neutral can be a dangerous alignment because it represents apathy, indifference, and a lack of conviction.

Humans are the most adaptable of the common races. Short generations and a penchant for migration and conquest have made them physically diverse as well. Humans are often unorthodox in their dress, sporting unusual hairstyles, fanciful clothes, tattoos, and the like.

Bards often serve as negotiators, messengers, scouts, and spies. They love to accompany heroes (and villains) to witness heroic (or villainous) deeds firsthand, since a bard who can tell a story from personal experience earns renown among his fellows. A bard casts arcane spells without any advance preparation, much like a sorcerer. Bards also share some specialized skills with rogues, and their knowledge of item lore is nearly unmatched. A high Charisma score allows a bard to cast high-level spells.

Find out What Kind of Dungeons and Dragons Character Would You Be?, courtesy of Easydamus (e-mail)

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Writer's Block: Toy story

Jan. 4th, 2010 | 07:58 pm
mood: gloomygloomy

What was your favorite toy when you were a child? Do you still have it? What did it mean to you?

Oh man oh man what was my fav toy? well let me take a look back in time.....

I see....I see...a toy made from socks. His name....Mister Sockey. My god the creativeness of my childhood mind just blows me away sometimes!

and I still have him somewhere. I used to play with him on this awesome swing set we had in the backyard. I remember it being summer and dad was BBQ-ing on the back deck. Mmmmmm burgers. and Mister Sockey and I were just chillin' on the swings. It was kinda late so the sky was starting to turn orange. man it was pretty.

I also had a couple of Transformers, well Beasties. Airazor was so basass. She has a simple transformation thank god. My simple mind could not take it if it were like the ones I have now. Like Superion. Sweet baby Jesus that took about 2 hours to transform. Taking all them planes and making them into body parts. I was so pissed off after I finished him. Then sometime later I took another good look at him and noticed he didn't have any real hands, just guns and lazors. made me feel kinda bad for the guy and sad that I got angry at him.

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One of those list meme thingys

May. 29th, 2009 | 01:30 pm

Okay, since I haven't been on here for a while I devided to spam you people with random things I find. HA HA POOR YOU.

What is your name?: Gillian
Are you named after anyone?: I think a new caster...i don't know. My mum just liked the name
What's your screename?: JillianJiggsaw or just Jiggsaw. Sometimes people shorten it to just Jiggs
Would you name a child of yours after you?: HA HA. No
If you were born a member of the opposite sex what would your name be?: um..never really thought about it. I've always liked the name Vincent, but I think thats because I like the character from FF VII
If you could switch names with a friend who would it be?: Jade
Would you drop your last name if you became famous?: I don't think so. I like my last name.

Your gender: Female
Single?: Yeah...
If not, do you want to be?: but I am. Your question is moot then.
Birthdate: October 11
Your age: 19
Age you act: I know I can act childish, but I don't know the age
Age you wish you were: I'd like to be around 6 or 7. So carefree.
Your height: around 5'6
Eye color: Hazel with a strange gold colour ring
Happy with it?: looks neat I guess
Hair color: Dark Brown....kinda like mud I guess. Got some natural red and blond highlights
Happy with it?: One of the few things I like about myself
Lefty/righty/ambidextrous: Right handed
Your living arrangement: At home
Your family:GAH! Theres my Mum, Dad, two younger brothers and my older sister. My grandmothers and Grandfather. My mum has a lot of brothers who got married and had a lot of kids who got married and had kids. I don't know most of my cousins names and can't match any faces with names I do know. My dad has two sisters who didn't get married, though they still could if they find the right guy, but I have never seen them date anyone.
Have any pets?: A cat
Whats your job?: A housekeeper at a nursing home
Piercings?: used to when I was really young, but it hurt too much to keep taking them out to clean the holes. My mum mostly did it though, so maybe is was her fault.
Obsessions?: The Internet!
Addictions?: The internet?
Do you speak another language?: A bit of French and Spanish
Have a favorite quote?: not really...
Do you have a webpage?: Nope

Deep Thoughts About Life and You in it
Do you live in the moment?: sometimes
Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: I try.
Do you have any secrets?: Maybe I do, maybe I don't
Do you hate yourself?: sometimes
Do you like your handwriting?: My 'a's look like 'u's sometimes....
Do you have any bad habits?: biting my nails
What is the compliment you get from most people?: um...wait...I don't know any
If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: The Slacker Gillian? I don't know! This is a weird question
What's your biggest fear?: I hate moths a lot. does that count?
Can you sing?: Some people say I sing alright, and others (mostly my brother) say I suck
Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: Only on the net.
Are you a loner?: Lately yeah
What are your #1 priorities in life?: Job and school
If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: I'm all I have
Are you a daredevil?: Nope
Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: um....I don't like the fact that I get scared to speak up about something. I always think that I am saying something stupid.
Are you passive or agressive?:I try to be passive, but I fail so hard
Do you have a journal? DUR! I just don't use it alot
What is your greatest strength and weakness?:
strength: Can't think of any.
weakness: Too many I think
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?: Maybe lose some weight
Do you think you are emotionally strong?: I don't understand....
Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: kinda
Do you think life has been good so far?: starting to
What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: people can't say mean things to you if you don't say anything
What do you like the most about your body?: I like my hair...
And least?: the weight loss thing may help.
Do you think you are good looking?: *snort* no
Are you confident?: on somethings yeah
What is the fictional character you are most like?: um..just the one I created
Are you perceived wrongly?: I don't know. People don't tell me.

Do You...
Smoke?: nope
Do drugs?: D8 NO!
Read the newspaper?: Just the comics and the Dear Abby letters
Pray?: sometimes
Go to church?: Yep
Talk to strangers who IM you?: No
Sleep with stuffed animals?: *nods* I have a teddy bear. His name keeps changing over the years though. I think I may have found one that wil stick though.
Take walks in the rain?: Let me take off my shoes and socks first 8D
Talk to people even though you hate them?: Yeah. Even though I don't like them, I don't want to hurt people's feelings.
Drive?: no
Like to drive fast?: no

Would or Have You Ever?
Liked your voice?: Yeah, but I'm told I have a cheery voice. what does that mean?
Hurt yourself?: Just punching walls. And this one time trying to high kick a wall because this new kid from Korea was showing people how, I fall backwards and smacked my head on the ground. Funny thing is I don't remember crying, but everything was kinda a blurr, even though I had my glasses on. People kept asking me questions seeing if I would answer then right. No one got a teacher.
Been out of the country?: Down to the States and to Europe
Eaten something that made other people sick?: Can't think of anything...I'm a picky eater and don't try a lot of new things.
Been in love?: I don't know. I've started talking to a guy and he seems really nice and sweet. I just don't know...
Gone skinny dipping?: D8 NO!
Had a medical emergency?: not since I was born. I was born and my hip was dislocated.
Had surgery?: None
Ran away from home?: I just hid in the woods behind my house until I calmed down.
Played strip poker?: Almost did once then bailed out.
Gotten beaten up?: Only by my brother
Beaten someone up?: Only my brothers
Been picked on?: Not really. except one time this guy called me Jillian Juggs randomly and my friends wouldn't shut up about it!
Been on stage?: Only in the school band. We did do the Music for the School Musical 'Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat' That wasa blast.
Slept outdoors?: A couple camping trips. sometimes just otu in the backyard.
Thought about suicide?: Only a couple of times, just to try and feel the pain. Then I stop thinking about is, because I grossed myself out
Pulled an all nighter?: yes
If yes, what is your record?: I didn't keep track. I was up too long.
Gone one day without food?: a couple of times.
Talked on the phone all night?: no
Slept together with the opposite sex w/o actually having sex?: Nope
Slept all day?: nah, just for most of a day
Killed someone?: Only in dreams.
Made out with a stranger?: never been kissed
Had sex with a stranger?: virgin
Thought you're going crazy?: at times
Kissed the same sex?: go back two questions.
Done anything sexual with the same sex?: no
Had a dream that came true?: I don't think so. I can never remember most of my dreams
Broken the law?: Don't think so. was stopped by cops when walking with friends because we were roughhousing next to a bust street and she told us to stop.
Met a famous person?: nope
Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: no
On purpose?: just bugs
Stolen anything?: I took some candy from residents at the nursing home once
Been on radio/tv?: Not to my knowledge
Been in a mosh-pit?: nope
Had a nervous breakdown?: right on the edeg sometimes
Bungee jumped?: I like living thank you!
Had a dream that kept coming back?: Oh yeah...

Belive in life on other planets?: Yep
Miracles?: I hope so.
Astrology?: Kinda. It sounds interesting, but I dont' take it seriously
Magic?: yes.
God?: yes.
Satan?: Yep.
Santa?: no.
Ghosts?: Oh yeah
Luck?: I hope so!
Love at first sight?: yeah, but I haven't seen them yet.
Yin and yang (that good cant exist w/o bad)?: of course
Witches?: Yeah
Easter bunny?: No, and I don't get why there is a bunny at all.
Believe its possible to remain faithful forever?: yeah
Believe theres a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow?: no
Do you wish on stars?: sometimes

Deep Theological Questions
Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell?: It gives me an idea at least.
Do you think God has a gender?: I think god can change his gender at will and might perfer the 'He' form. That way it won't be awkward with Mary. That or a ball of energy.
Do you believe in organized religion?: I just go t church. Not my fault they all go there to.
Where do you think we go when we die?: Thats depressing. You go in the ground.
Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?: yeah
Who is your best friend?: um..either Jade or Michelle. Online Best friend is Swany
Who's the one person that knows most about you?: heck I don't know.
What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you?: They don't give me any!
Your favourite inside joke?: CRAB BATTLE! or TOGETHER! AS A FAMILY!
Who's your longest known friend?: *sigh*...I haven't talked to my friends in Cole Harbour in 7 years and I've only known my new friends for about 6.
Newest?: Slagger and Swany I guess
Shyest?: um...me?
Funniest?: XD Slagger and Erik
Sweetest?: Slaggers, no question.
Closest?: Jade
Weirdest?: Michelle
Smartest?: Jade. I think she may have extra brains in her boobs, they are huge!
Ditziest?: Michlle
Friends you miss being close to the most?: Don't rightly know
Last person you talked to online?: Everyone
Who do you talk to most online?: Slaggers and Swany. Only way we can talk to each other.
Who are you on the phone with most?: I hate phones
Who do you trust most?: um...can't decide
Who listens to your problems?: everyone
Who do you fight most with?: Swany XD
Who's the nicest?: everyone!
Who's the most outgoing?: Jade
Who's the best singer?: aahhhh....don't know. We don't sing too much
Who's on your shit-list?: >:/ don't make me start
Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend?: NO!
Who's your second family?: Well, I used to hang out at my friend Shala's house a lot, but now we mostly hang at Michelle's since her parents are away most weekends.
Do you always feel understood?: nope
Who's the loudest friend?: Oh me, no doubt.
Do you trust others easily?: I'd like to.
Who's house were you last at?: Michelle a couple days ago.
Name one person who's arms you feel safe in: . . . .
Do your friends know you?: I think so.
Friend that lives farthest away: Internet friends. And Jade lives across town in the boonies. I can never remember where her place is.

Love and All That
Do you consider love a mistake?: I never been fully in love, so I don't know.
What do you find romantic?: sweet things I guess. I DON'T KNOW!
Turn-on?: FFFFFFFFFF-! *shrugs&
Turn-off?: I guess being an ass wouldn't help their chances.
First kiss?: nope
If someone u had no interest in had interest in dating u how would u feel?: Kinda nice, but annoyed.
Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them: *nods* Oh yeah
Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive: I don't know. I've always had a strange taste though so you never know....
Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?: WELL THEY AREN'T TELLING ME ANYTHING!
What is best about the opposite sex?: That most I've met are idiots.......and then one comes along and makes me think...*sigh*
What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?: The ones I know are idiots. as I have stated before
What's the last present someone gave you?: Our Korean neighbours are moving so they gave us licky money bags and pencil cases with a Korean style.
Are you in love?: Heck I don't know...
Do you consider your significant other hot?: I don't have one.

Who Was the Last Person...
That haunted you?: . . . .what?
You wanted to kill?: My brother
That you laughed at?: My sister
That laughed at you?: My family
That turned you on?: . . . *sigh*
You went shopping with?: Myself
That broke your heart?: No one yet.
To disappoint you?: Can't think of one...
To ask you out?: No one
To make you cry?: My dad.
To brighten up your day?: Internet friends
That you thought about?: some guy I don't wish to say outloud.
You saw a movie with?: My family, minus dad because he had work.
You talked to on the phone?: My boss
You saw?: My mum in the kitchen downstairs
You lost?: My Uncle.

Right This Moment...
Are you going out?: Later to dinner
Will it be with your significant other?: No. . . ;__;. . don't have one! STOP REMINDING ME!
Or some random person?: Just family
What are you wearing right now?: Black sweat pants, a grey TShirt that is WAAAY too big for me and slipper...and underwear.
Body part you're touching right now: O_O. . . what do you mean?
What are you worried about right now?: picking classes
What book are you reading?: Chocolate Chip Cookie Murder
What's on your mousepad?: don't got one
Are you bored?: yes
Are you tired?: nope
Are you talking to anyone online?: Too many
Are you talking to anyone on the phone?: no
Are you lonely or content?: Kinda lonely
Are you listening to music?: Just the radio. Not really paying attention, I just like the background noise.

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May. 29th, 2009 | 12:35 pm

Take the Sci fi sounds quiz I received 63 credits on
The Sci Fi Sounds Quiz

How much of a Sci-Fi geek are you?
Quiz by SheGoddess: lose weight

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May. 24th, 2009 | 07:00 pm
mood: depresseddepressed


Its been awhile hasn't it? Like..months. MY BAD. Sorry about that. I've been busy. I'm done with school, failing one class. I felt horrible. I've been busy with work. I work at a nursing home as a housekeeper. I clean up after old people.


No. I lie. It isn't.

so thats basically what has been happening. Nothing much, but it takes a lot of time.

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Jan. 28th, 2009 | 11:02 pm
location: Bedroom
mood: apatheticapathetic
music: The Night

So I'm studying poems for my English class.

Whooo. Fun. -_-

I really should have been doing it earlier, but poems are boring to study, and funner to write. And I don't even really know if it the poems I should be studying, the period they were writen in, or the buddies that wrote them.

Gawd, Professor Bedknob sucks, with her weird ass name I can't say or spell so what I wrote, you get, and her slightly English accent. I think she`s fakingit, just so she seems more posh. It is not working.

At all.

So I shoudl study. I was using this journal as a distraction. It worked, but not very well. Back to Kubla Khan. 

OR back to Samurai Jack....

I`m going to have to go with the way of the Samurai this time.

And from the sound of icey rain on my window, maybe classes will be cancelled. Supah Sweet!

`Got to get back, Back to the past, Samurai Jack.`

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Filling up space

Jan. 22nd, 2009 | 12:34 am
location: Home
mood: contemplativecontemplative
music: Night

I can write ramdom post if I want to right? I do not force people to read them or to comment them, I leave it up to them. I just wanted to type something fo the sake of typing. I like to type. It feel strangly good. Pressing button and hearing them click and watching words flow on to my screen.

It's like fucking magic.

But I know it's not.

It's science. Technology. The anti-thesis to all the fun things I like to believe in. The faries and trolls. Goblins and aliens. Lochness monster and Bigfoot. The Penanggalan and worm holes.

I think there are different worlds, some very much like our own and others that you would only see in fiction. That's kinda what I think. Whenever someone writes, or creates something, a new world forms and all that you learn in that work is there. All the history and locations and people and characters. So maybe one day you could escape this world and enter your fandom world, like Harry Potter, or Inuyasha, or Hellboy, of Batman, or Yu Yu Hakusho, or YuGiOh, or Avatar The Last Airbender, or Death Note.

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It's the end of the world as we know it and I feel fine!

Jan. 19th, 2009 | 02:15 pm
location: Cafeteria
mood: jubilantjubilant
music: radio

Oh dear god, what have I done! I've joined livejournal, another thing that will let me meet and connect with others that share my sense of humor, or what it would like me to believe! I know what will happen, as soon as I post something that will other see right into the depths of MY SOUL! they will start to make cracks about how 'uncool' I am!

I NEED TO BE COOL!! My very life depends on it! Don't judge me! I need friends!

OR maybe this is that start of something beautiful, and I'll meet a buunch of people, and we'll laugh and talk and become BFFs and share every little thing about ourselves and be able to tell each other anything!



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